The Share Yourself Challenge and Giveaway corresponds to a week of transition for me, as I prepare three different”piles” for moving overseas: one to live off of in a month, one to fly over there for when I arrive, one to ship that will come sometime before Christmas. The move stimulates the question: what do I need now? what do I want now? and the constant decision making drains my emotional energy and often leaves me in a pile of doubt and exhilaration.
During this time, I’ve been wondering how much to share with others …this happy struggle of moving on. Reading that a lot of bloggers have decided to pause for a break because sharing has become too intense, too laborious, has stimulated a thought: sharing makes us vulnerable.
Sharing is dangerous…or so the swatting hands of American mothers taught us as chubby hands snatched for communal suckers. So so we’ve developed habits of partial sharing…fearing opening up the vulnerable parts of ourselves to protect against viral infection.
So of course, we decide what to share…what to put in this pile, what aspects of ourselves to profile, experts at airbrushing the version of “K” to advertise for consumption.
When the reality is: I cradle resiliency in my bones, I pioneer with bravery into new terrain and equip myself with tools I need to thrive…in the same step forward, I nurture a fear of the unknown, and anxiety paralyzes me that somehow, I’ll manfacture my life into something that doesn’t belong or matters signficantly to any one but me.
You…Me…I am beautifully flawed. Let’s share that with one another…Watch this and tell me what you think…but, HEY! HEY!
Hey, you…back away from that $10 a jar nut butter! That’s MINE!
Gotta Go…Duty Calls!